Life Groups

I Am Teaching my Life Group Today and I am talking about where God is When He is silent.

I have been wanting to Use This Poem by Bradley Hathaway for A long Time and I'm So glad That I finally Get To.

So Here It Is::

Silence By Bradley Hathaway:

What's Happening Here?

I Was Once So Alive and Now...

I'm So Full of Dread and Almost Dead.

Show Me Your Wounded Head That Has Led to Communion With The Father.

But Where did He Go?

His Presence Seems Farther and Farther Away Each Day, But I'm Trying so Hard to Steer His Way.

Yet Still, Lonely and Confused on This Cold, Hard Ground I Lay.

Speak to Me Wise Mouth and Say;

"It's All Good Kid, It's Nothing That You Did,

And though it Feels Like I'm Not Here With You Right now Just Be Still and Silent and Listen for That Sound...

Shh...

Did You Hear it?

Listen Agian.

Did You Hear it?

That Silent Voice that Just Spoke Nothing, that is Me.

I'm Listening to Your Plea with Open Ears, Counting All your Tears Flowing From Your Irritated Eyes, Searching the Skies, Looking for That Hope That Beyond There Lies.

Oh You, Young Worrisome Sparrow, Find Rest!

Lay Your Battered Head Upon my Omnipresent Breast and Make It Your Nest.

No Strong, Cold Wind could Ever Blow and Carry You from This Your Home.

Look Around, See The Life Shooting Up from the Ground?

Spring Colors Springing Forth in Celebration of This, Your Trusting.

It's a Constant Process this Is.

Growing You into the Man That You Are to Become.

But when you Sense the Setting of the Sun know It is Only Rising and Has Just Begun.

Now Go Forth, Sing Songs of Faith, and Lift Up Others in the Midst of This Race.

And If You can't Keep the Pace or Lose Sight of My Face, Just Know that I Am always Near So You Need Not Fear.

But Don't Worry About All That Right Now.

Just Sit Her and Enjoy the Peace i Offer in My Silence.

When I Am Silent, I am Listening and Not Abandoning.

"So Do Not Fear, For I Am With You; Do Not Be Dismayed, For I Am Your God."

Isaiah 41:10

"God is Our Refuge and Strength, an Ever-Present Help in Trouble." Psalm 46:1

"I Will Never Fail You, I Will Never Abandon You." Hebrews 13:5

I Will Go.

You are Whispering to my Heart.

It Pounds at the Familiarity of Your Voice.

It was Longed for You, Yearned for Your Presence.

And now You Are here.

I am so Overjoyed, so Overwhelmed.

I Do not know what to do.

So I Will Listen.

And to my Heart You Say...

You Must Go!!

I Will Go... Live to Feed The hungry, Stand beside the Broken... I Will Go!

To Bleed is To Bleed

So These last few weeks have been filled with struggle and joy.

1. I got into a car accident.

2. We had to use the school money to buy a new car

BUT

1. There are so many others who have it worse than I do

and I am blessed to be where I am, with the people I have.

2. Adam and Katie went to Rwanda to bring home

their Beautiful, wonderful baby boys.

I am realizing my love for children.

I can't put this into words right now..

and I don't think it is the right time.

And I have recently discovered that

I am so sick of sitting here

waiting for life to just happen.

I'm going to make it happen.

Now, I am only waiting on the Lord.

Lastly... I wrote this

on November 23, 2009

I Wake up from a Night of Restlessness, my Mind just won't Stop.

When Will I get Rest from This?

This thinking Ticks like A Clock.

I've taught myself to Remember, but at the Same time to Forget.

I Remember all the Things to cause my Blood to Spill, but Forget about All The Good things God did.

I Grab the Closest Blade- No Matter what it is.

And as I begin to Tare, to Slice, I feel no relief and All I See is Blood.

There is no Pain, Nothing Triggers in my mind.

Just The Response of how Can you Do This?

The Others, They're not Blind.

As the Cuts begin to Burn and I begin to Breath, I realize it did Nothing... how did It not Help me?

It is This Moment I will Always Remember... This Moment When These Cuts are just Cuts and this Blood is Only Blood.

When I Realize that it is Not My Blood but His that can trigger my mind.

When will I Learn to Accept His when I want to accept Mine?

This Journey I will Embark on, This Risk I will Take.

If I don't Accept The Blood of Christ it will only be My Mistake.

So as I say I am Sorry for What I have Done, I Accept His Blood and This time I Choose Not To Run.

I know Now that To Bleed is To Bleed, but to Choose Christ is to Be Forgiven.

And To Be Forgiven is to have A Second Chance.

I Won't Forget my Savior and I won't Forget His Son.

For to Bleed is to Bleed but To Choose Christ is to Have Won.

It's Been Too Long

One Day Soon I Will Come Face To Face With Jesus... What Will He Say About The Way I Lived My Life On Earth?

I'm afraid to put that question up because I don't Know how to answer it.

Lately Jesus has seemed so far from me. It's Leaving me feeling hopeless.

And it's hard because All I have is my husband and it's not like he's not enough

it's just sometimes I wish I had a Girl To talk to.

I know this is just my ramblings... but It seems that writing is the only way

I can get it all out.

And Now that I want to I don't Have Words To Describe it.

It's Like

Being Stranded In a Desert with no Water or Food.

...

There is A Song That Reminds Me Of How Life Has Been Lately...

here Are The Lyrics--

DESERT SONG by Hillsong United

This is My Prayer In the Desert

When All That's Within Me Feels Dry.

This is My Prayer In the Hunger and Need,

My God Is A God Who Provides.

And This is My Prayer In the Fire

In Weakness Or Trial Or Pain.

There is A Faith Proved

Of More Worth Than Gold.

So Refine, Lord Through The Flames.

And I Will Bring Praise

I Will Bring Praise.

No Weapon Formed Against Me Shall Remain.

I Will Rejoice, I Will Declare

God Is My Victory and He Is Here.

And This is My Prayer in The Battle

When Triumph Is Still On Its Way.

I Am A Conquerer And Co-Heir With Christ

So Firm on his Promise I'll Stand.

I Will Bring Praise, I Will Bring Praise

No Weapon Formed Against Me Shall Remain.

I will Rejoice, I Will Declare

God is My Victory and He Is Here.

All Of My Life, In Every Season

You Are Still God, I Have A Reason To SIng

I Have A Reason To Worship.

This is My Prayer In The Harvest

When Favor and Providence Flow.

I Know I'm Filled To Be Emptied Again

This Seed I've Received I will Sow.

Though I Suffer, He Is Good, HE IS GOD.

WELCOME HOME COLUMBIA TEAM<3

We Missed You!!!!!!!

Sometimes....

I Wish I Was Different.

I Wish That All Those Things That Caused Me 

To Be The Way I Am Today Would Change

And Cause Me To Be Someone Else.

I Wish That People Wanted To Know Me.

But They Don't.

I Wish People Took The Time To Understand...

But They Don't

Again Today... One Last Time.

Mark, Jessie, and Krista<3

Today was definitely a busy day. But It was Fun<3

-Runs to 7-11

-Walks down Streets

-Picture Fun

Beautiful Day<3

"During a Severe Testing by Affliction, Their Abundance of Joy and Their Deep Poverty Overflowed into the Wealth of their Generosity." 2 Corinthians 8:2